Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Sew Buttons

I always thought it was annoying if I started a sentence with 'So' and someone said 'So...buttons'. It made me lose my train of thought. Well, I am actually 'sewing buttons'. I got my coat out of the closet and ALL of the buttons were loose. I don't know what that coat was doing all summer in my closet but for some reason the thread decided it wasn't going to hold on to the buttons anymore. Luckily, the rest of my coat is in good shape.

This coat belonged to my sister who passed away in 2002 at the age of 26 from an aneurysm. So young, and the mother of 2 little boys who are being raised by their grandparents. Her birthday was the 6th and she passed away right before Thanksgiving so November is a little sad. I think about her a lot, after all, I'm wearing her coat everyday.

Her life and early death often cause me to reflect on my goals. On one hand, I want to be doing fun stuff now like spending time with family, traveling, having a fun job or no job at all. On the other hand, if I just stick it out at my job for a few more years I have a better chance at being able to have that kind of life for the long-term. I do realise that I or a family member or friend could die at any moment but I don't have control over that. I can't spend every moment with every person I care about. It's just not possible.

So, while I'm working towards financial independence, I will try to appreciate the little bit of time I get with my friends and family. Having only 2 weeks of vacation does not give me a lot of time since they live out of state. Of course I am happy to still have a job and hopefully, soon, I will have more freedom for the fun parts of life.


Over the Cubicle Wall said...

Holidays are a little sadder without the loved ones you have lost, but they are also at the center of so many good memories of them. Going after your dreams and goals is one good way of honoring them. You seem to be doing a good job of that from what I can tell. Keep it up, and you will be there soon.

Sharon S said...

Hi there-You are definitely doing the right thing, particularly for the long term too. best wishes to you at this time my dear and keep up the good work you've achieved so far.

Lizzie @ her homeworld said...

I always think its sad when I lay the table on Christmas morning, tihnking of everyone who isnt there this year. We lost my nephew 8 years ago last month, aged just 28. We are right to remember them and allow it to change how we live our lives. Good luck with everything.

Daizy said...

Thanks for the well-wishes everyone.

Living Creekside said...

{{Hugs}} on the loss of your sister how tragic.. I can see how this month is a sad one...... I hope you do get to spend some time with your family..

Daizy said...

Thanks LaDawn, I'll be spending a week with family soon. Hopefully it will be fun (and no one will have the flu!).