I always thought it was annoying if I started a sentence with 'So' and someone said 'So...buttons'. It made me lose my train of thought. Well, I am actually 'sewing buttons'. I got my coat out of the closet and ALL of the buttons were loose. I don't know what that coat was doing all summer in my closet but for some reason the thread decided it wasn't going to hold on to the buttons anymore. Luckily, the rest of my coat is in good shape.
This coat belonged to my sister who passed away in 2002 at the age of 26 from an aneurysm. So young, and the mother of 2 little boys who are being raised by their grandparents. Her birthday was the 6th and she passed away right before Thanksgiving so November is a little sad. I think about her a lot, after all, I'm wearing her coat everyday.
Her life and early death often cause me to reflect on my goals. On one hand, I want to be doing fun stuff now like spending time with family, traveling, having a fun job or no job at all. On the other hand, if I just stick it out at my job for a few more years I have a better chance at being able to have that kind of life for the long-term. I do realise that I or a family member or friend could die at any moment but I don't have control over that. I can't spend every moment with every person I care about. It's just not possible.
So, while I'm working towards financial independence, I will try to appreciate the little bit of time I get with my friends and family. Having only 2 weeks of vacation does not give me a lot of time since they live out of state. Of course I am happy to still have a job and hopefully, soon, I will have more freedom for the fun parts of life.