Friday, September 7, 2007

Too Much Stress, Makes Me Want to Quit

This past week had a lot of ups and downs. Mostly downs really. Work was either stressful or boring. I did get a raise but that just confused my choices even more. Is a stressful job worth it if it pays more money? I don't think so.

I usually judge a week by how much time I spend trying to figure out how to support myself without this job. I spent a lot of time this week. Looking at my $700 a month budget (assuming my house is rented out to cover the mortgage) I tried to whittle it down without cutting every convenience like internet and phone. This week I decided that $609 per month was my magic number. A part time job at $8/h would give me about $575 per month. Oh, so close. I can't do that though. Any unexpected bill like a car repair or medical bill would ruin me. My goal is for my savings (such as the equity in my house)to produce enough interest to cover my basic expenses and a part time job would generate spending (or saving) money allowing for plenty of time to indulge in my interests such as art, volunteering, animals and plants. Relying solely on a part time job is too risky I think. I can't make that move yet.

While I was writing this it started to rain big drops of rain. The storm moved in from the east and the sun was shining brightly and setting in the west. I went outside and looked for the rainbow which I found right over my house and took a picture. It's not very bright but it is there. Just a reminder to me to stop and appreciate the good things that I have in my life even if I don't like my job right now.

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